“The people walking in darkness
have seen a great light;
on those living in the land of deep darkness
a light has dawned.” Isaiah 9:2

Five years ago yesterday I became a mother.

Five years ago today a darkness settled over me.

I was consumed.

There were long stretches of time when the clouds would clear and the moon shown bright. Very bright.

The moon is no substitute for the sun. The moon is only a reflection of the sun. But the fact that it glows, gives hope that the sun is still out there.

Then the clouds returned. Darkness once again enveloped me.

Anger. Frustration. Exhaustion. Mourning…Depression.

It was not supposed to be this way.

I did not give in! I fought for JOY!

I sought the Redeemer.

“LORD, give to me the joy that I was robbed of. Redeem the years of depression. Replace anger with love. Frustration with peace. Exhaustion with rest. Mourning with dancing. Depression with joy.”

It wasn’t until recently, I realized the dawn had come. It had come with a fog.

I was awoken as one who knows not if they are in the world of dreams or reality.

Then the sun burned through the fog and my eyes were enlightened!

The Redeemer has come! He has claimed victory over the five-year darkness. I have love, peace, rest, dancing…JOY! (Psalm 30:11-12)

My heart is full. The LORD has been faithful. Morning has come!

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The LORD has been faithful to not allow my struggle to be in vain. This very blog was born because of this darkness I spoke of. He has opened so many doors of ministry because of it. Even though the enemy intended to harm me, God used those plans for good. (Genesis 50:20)

Dear Sister,if you are still in the midst of postpartum depression, please take heart. The LORD is with you. His word promises, “Weeping may linger for the night, but joy comes with the morning.” (Psalm 30:5b) and “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

In the most unusual of ways, He is in the process of redeeming the losses I have felt. He can do the same for you. Trust in Him. Fight for joy. His desire is your victory. Together you will claim victory.

I know that there are many of you who struggle in silence. In our Google stats, I often see that people find us by search “God’s help with postpartum depression”. Don’t feel that you are alone. I would be honored to stand with you in prayer.

You can comment below, contact us at mosaicofmoms@gmail.com, or through our Facebook page.

Blessings,

~ Jennifer Mullen

Related Articles on the Topic of Postpartum Depression from Jennifer

Introduction to a Three-Part Series on Postpartum Depression- Published February 1, 2012.
More Than Baby Blues- Published February 6, 2012 –My experience with postpartum with my first-born.
Techniques that Helped Me with Postpartum Depression- Published February 8, 2012
Round Two: Manna From Heaven - Published March 6, 2012— How my experience with postpartum was different the with my second born and how God carried me through it.